Saturday, August 25, 2007

the newest member...




i'm not sure if this was the wisest decision. we purchased a 9 week old English bulldog named Carlitos - Carlos for short. but how could we resist that face? let me tell ya, this little guy is up to no good. i had no idea that puppies pee every 15 minutes, yikes! he's already broke out of his lock down spot twice while we where gone. we found him both times passed out in our closet on our pile of dirty clothes. he also chewed a pair of new shoes i bought from Nordstroms that i hadn't worn yet. i'm not sure if Nordstoms is down with the dog chewed my shoe return! good thing he’s so dang cute. he loves taking long naps on our bed and can pass out like no other. a lazy dog is for sure the way to go. i think this might only be the beginning of the many stories Carlos will bring to our lives.

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

no babies...


i'm finally recovering from the disappointing news. the 2 week wait was the worst part of the whole thing. am i pregnant or not, just tell me please! i didn't feel one ounce of being pregnant so i was pretty much planning on the bad news. but the reality of it really sucked. i think i got all my crying out the past two days, so today i haven't felt that emotional about it. i decided i'm not going to wallow in my sorrows any longer. thinking about my life, i've always had to fight for things i've wanted. i guess this is just another and i'm ready to fight back. life doesn't always turn out how you picture it and that's the hardest thing to accept. the world can try real hard to cripple you and it can, but you're the one that makes that decision. so my infertility journey continues....
p.s. cheesy picture huh!

Thursday, August 9, 2007

are you kidding me...




the Doc highly recommended me to not do hair color until i'm past my first trimester. i just don't know how that's going to fly! People’s roots just can’t wait. so what’s the alternative? the freaking mask!!! i don't know if you've ever put one of these on or not, but it sucks and you can't breath. plus part of my job is to chat. at least when Doctors wear these there clients are knocked out. i guess i'm going to have to test it out tomorrow unless anyone has a better idea! there better be a baby in there.


Tuesday, August 7, 2007

you got mail!!!

so i didn't wake up 'til 10:00 this morning cause i couldn't get to sleep last night. i think i was still blogging in my head or i had a serious sugar buzz for the cookie dough i ate! probably a combination of both... i got on line to check things out and couldn't believe how much mail i had so early in the morning. i just want to thank you all for such encouraging words! how did a girl ever get so lucky...

i love july




my sister and here kids come out every july from Dallas to visit for a few weeks. i always look forward to seeing my nephews- Zach & James and my favorite girl -miss Madeline Jean!


its a month packed full of fun, drive-in movie, county fair, good food, sleep overs, fish'en and best of all just being together!





our little embryos....

danny and i have been married six years, so of course the next step in life, which began three years ago, is to have kids, right? well easier said than done. we just finished our first round of in-vitro, and for those of you that don't know much or anything about it i'm so happy for you. its quite the process both physically and emotionally. those experiencing infertility know exactly what i'm talking about. fortunately danny & i have so many great friends and family that have supported us through this journey -couldn't have made without them.
so the in-vitro process starts by first finding a great doctor. ours happened to be in Reno, of all places... then you get a huge box in the mail full of drugs, syringes, and the lovely needles! i definitely had a break down when i saw what i was really getting myself into - just a little over whelming. the worst part of this whole thing is the anticipation and thinking how much those damn needles are going to hurt. then you meet with your doctor and they explain how to mix your cocktail of drugs and map out your schedule for the month. when to start this, when to stop that, when it's time for another shot and so on. the shots aren't that bad; i only fainted once!! luckily danny was there to wake me up.
on july 24th we left for reno to begin our adventure. one of the shots made me produce tons of eggs, since normally you only have one or maybe two a month. the first couple of day were dedicated to monitor how big my follicles were getting, which estimates the maturity of the eggs that are inside. of course i happened to be two days behind so that gave us two more days in Reno. not happy about that... finally it was time to knock me out to do the egg retrieval. the doctor took 33 eggs out! am i freaking you all out yet!?!?! yeah, so then they put the spermies and eggs together and let the conception begin - it's a blind date! the next day they called us and told us we had 24 little embryos growing! crazy.. i'm still a little tripped out about the whole thing, its really amazing. the third day after the retieval is the transfer day. they told us we had 11 quality embryos and showed us pictures of the best three. we transfered two of them that day.
so here i am trying to relax at home and praying to get through the longest week of my life. we'll find out this weekend! i do have to say that nothing was as bad as i thought it was going to be. i'm a little bruised up from the shots but i'd do it all over again.
i'm staying very optimistic about it. i find myself role-playing how the phone call is going to go. ok...im not pregnant or i'm pregnant? that's going to be an intense phone call. i would prefer a text message instead.
i'll have to leave you all hanging until i find out. hopefully this is it! if not we're blessed to have so many frozen embryos waiting................